I've fallen apart. I'm not afraid to admit it. I have lost all sense of organiztion and control of my daily life.
Since October, I have gained 25 pounds, leaving me 7 pounds shy of my full term pregnancy weight with The Boy. My self image is shot, my motivation is down, and my energy level non-existant.
In addition, I feel like my home is falling apart around me. Any semblance of the routine I once had is completely gone. After taking my kids to school, I crawl back into bed and often times don't get back out until I have to go pick them up. That means household chores aren't getting done, laundry is piling up, and very little is getting cleaned.
This all needs to change. I am very unhappy in my body and in my home. I know I am the only one that can do anything about it. So I am going to get of my fat, lazy ass and make some changes.
It sounds like a lot to tackle. Which is why I am bringing it to this forum. The sense of community I feel in the blogosphere is far greater than any network I have IRL. I know there are men and women that read my blog and probably yours that are feeling defeated as well. I also know there are people that read our blogs that have overcome these feelings of defeat. I am reaching out to all of you for support and inspiration. I have also read in many places that publicly stating your goals helps in making them more attainable.
To get control of my home, I am going to be going back to the Fly Lady. Once upon a time her Beginner Baby Steps set me on a path to getting my house together. It has worked for me in the past and I believe that it can work for me again. My life is lacking routine. This program will help me to create a new one.
I'm going to be tracking my journey for the next 31 days. Why 31 days? Well, I've been told that it takes 28 days to develop a new habit. The Flylady breaks down her baby steps into 31 days - to help develop new habits and routines. 31 days will also give me 4 weeks to get back into a workout and healthy eating habit and hopefully begin to see changes. I will be tracking my progress and discussing my journey in my Blog Frog Community. I will share before and after pictures, success stories and tales of things that didn't work so hot for me. Ultimately, my goal is to find my better me, the one I lost somewhere along the way.
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