I feel sometimes as though life can be all consuming - and not in a good way...
At the beginning of September, my family lost its health insurance. Having become re-employed in April, I surpassed the income threshold to be eligible for state health care. My employer does not have a group plan.
This loss has has been devastating to my family.
Yeah, it sucks to not be able to run to the doctor for check-ups, and I'm not entirely thrilled to have to fill out an informed consent to have my son's vaccinations for 7th grade waived. But these are all merely inconveniences.
I have written many times in the past about my daughter's special needs and the stress they cause on our small family. These issues have all been occuring while she has been medicated and receiving treatment.
As a matter of fact, when I received notice my insurance was being cancelled (THREE days before it was actually cancelled), she was in the hospital. I had to have her discharged against doctor recommendations.
She had also reached the top of the waiting list for the residential care facility we had been waiting 6 months to get her into. She was not able to go.
In addition to her twice-weekly therapy being stopped, because I cannot afford to pay out-of-pocket for it, she is not able to visit her psychiatrist for med-checks. Heck, she currently isn't even on any meds, as I cannot afford the $1200 per month prescription bill.
After three weeks of school, she is on the fast track to failing the 6th grade. The police have been called to the home to intervene during a violent outburst. She is only 11, so all they can do is ask her to stop.
I pray daily that the Holy Spirit fill her with the spirit of obedience, and that the Lord compels her to make choices that glorify Him.
I try to keep this space as secular as possible, but my faith is a huge part of who I am. I know I have to have faith that the Lord will meet her needs. Through Him all things are possible, right?