I wish that when my kids were fighting, I could help them get along. I wish that my son didn't despise his sister. I wish that he understood that she doesn't function the way he does. I wish she realized how badly her actions hurt him. And me. I wish they understood.
I wish that when it came time to pay for things, money wasn't short. I wish that I didn't have to bartend to make ends meet. I wish that I spent less time worrying and more time doing... Although what more can I do? It's a constant stream of being behind. I'm never fully caught up. Maybe someday. I wish that someday was soon.
I wish I wasn't so tired. I wish sleeping wasn't so easy. I wish that when I looked around at all that needs to be done, I didn't look the other way and close my eyes. I wish I took better care of me.
I wish my family lived closer. Or that I lived closer to them. I wish I could see my nephews and my cousins' kids more regularly. I wish there wasn't that hesitant, "I think I know you" look in their eyes when I visited. I wish my kids could see them more, too.
I wish that when The Man said, "You're amazing." I believed it. I wish that I believed it when my friends said it, too. I wish that I believed that everyone doesn't leave. But I don't. So far they have. I wish that everytime someone told me how strong I am or how brave I am, they knew it makes me cringe. I didn't choose to be strong. I didn't choose to be brave. I just picked up pieces and did my best so my kids wouldn't know any different.
What do you wish?